another suite.
another city i couldn’t remember landing in.
marble bathroom.
skyline view.
turndown service.
it all blended together after a while.
—
work kept me moving.
so did everything else.
life on autopilot —
the kind you don’t notice you’re living
until you stop long enough to feel it.
and somewhere underneath the motion,
my marriage was failing too.
quietly.
without a single fight to point to.
—
then her.
and the fallout wasn’t the injury.
it was the moment the autopilot switched off.
for the first time in years,
i actually felt something.
even if what i felt was losing her.
—
you know this.
you’re the one still moving so you don’t have to feel it.
you’re the one lying next to someone tonight —
in the loneliest room you’ve ever been in.
and some part of you already knows —
you can keep doing this for another year.
another five.
another marriage.
still guessing.
still performing okay.
still waking up next to someone
who feels like a stranger in your own home.
or you can stop guessing right now.
—
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i’m not a coach.
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their honesty gave me the courage to speak mine.
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