don’t mistake access for forgiveness | musing no. 52

when a man betrays you and still thinks he’s doing you a favor by “defending” you, you don’t argue—you close the door and protect your peace.

i thought the hardest part of losing a friend would be the loss itself.

it wasn’t.

the hardest part was realizing he expected to walk back in like nothing happened.

he reached out today.

acted like everything was fine.

asked for help with his new business.

asked for my contacts.

asked for access.

not once did he apologize.

not once did he acknowledge what he did.

not once did he show an ounce of self-awareness.

men like that always want the benefits of your loyalty without doing any of the work that loyalty requires.

and when i told him not to contact me about stuff like that, he did exactly what i expected—