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Eugenia Larisa's avatar

And everything gets to be much easier when single. No conflicts to brace myself for. Dammit; it hit hard. Thank you for the reading.

DAgerrald 📚 🐝's avatar

Woo hoo, another standing ovation from me.

“Truth had teeth.” And it bit hard. 📠

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thank you!

Eugenia Larisa's avatar

Okay so... Yes, we do hate when drama is involved when challenges arrive. BUT. What about those who enjoy the drama when they are being by themselves and get rid of drama instantly when actual conflict arises? I'm a walking red flag; thanks :))

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first, you’re not a red flag.

what you’re describing isn’t loving drama. it’s loving control over the environment. drama you initiate or consume alone feels safe because you control the intensity, the pacing, the outcome.

actual conflict is different. it’s unpredictable. it threatens safety. it reactivates whatever your nervous system learned conflict meant.

when conflict once meant danger, your brain learned to map exits before anything escalates. that forward-mapping kept you alive. it made you sharp. perceptive. prepared.

but you’re right to ask the real question:

at what cost?

usually the cost is intimacy.

because hyper-vigilance keeps you safe — but it also keeps you slightly guarded.

you can anticipate everyone else’s reaction.

but you rarely let yourself fully relax inside your own.

that’s not drama.

that’s survival that never got retired.

and the work isn’t to erase it.

it’s to teach your nervous system that not every raised voice equals threat.

that’s where growth lives.

— author

Eugenia Larisa's avatar

*sobs in feeling being seen* Thank you.

Eugenia Larisa's avatar

Now, on second reading, we have different definitions on Drama.

Yes, growning in a house where conflict literally meant My life was actually in danger - taught me to build the forward mapping brain I have right now. Which helps me being safe. But at what cost though? Here's the question...